few days back

lately is jus another blue blue days,

doin a lil bit of self management,

like re-arrange the room,

my stuffs

and made up all appoinments and hang outs!

been using this and that, shud stick to one!

after the re-arrange and cleaning up!

happy 3rd anniversary,
deevon + hyde

nice celebration, anyway!

my dearest lil sis, belle...

happy belated birthday!

i love the prom sumway sumhow, babe! LOVE u muaxx muazzz farah!

guys, to others..

i'll find times for us ok?

tadaaa~~

hi guys, i am back

after the very bz moment gone,
here i am back to this very blog...
lots to catch up, yet interesting.. will be back!

glad that he is getting ok now... :D

back to classes

as usual, new class... a lil bit boring for the 1st few week.
seing around, only thania, qiela and me took this extra elective course from our programme.
well mostly guys.. why ha? where's all the girls?
as i entered, there is like those bunches of people especially guys look at me.. what's with that look? why?
what's wrong? did i wear something forbidden?
after all it is just a 3/4 pants with an ordinary top. nothing to be bothered right?
i guess, most of the mates are from the highest level classes. since i do not know them.
well hope the class wud be fun! mr. joseph is kinda serious but cute somehow! haha :P

# what's with the secret admirer notes in my dictionary???

my internal is bleeding!

frustration will set cries and lift up emptiness
but anyhow, i'll try to SMILE...

pet sista!

Guys,
this is Belle,
her actual name is Nabilla..
my junior in school!
she's in the same faculty with a fren of mine now, syaiqkal!
Syaiqkal's junior la ni...
No wonder I heard of syaiqkal mentioning her name before!
great grown up Belle! (we were pet sista hehe..)
forgotten to ask about belle kat syaiq yesterday...
So get into belle's facebook, got photo's of her.. we changed pictures hehe!
cute la belle now, if ever my lil brother Aliff as her age.. Sure i'll get Aliff to know u belle! hehe...
Nway cute2 pun, still tried 'one guy tu', x dpt jugak kan? hehe..
Ur senior tu mmg camtu la belle...
let him be la..
nway belle, nice hang out yesterday! nasib baik la tgok jam, kalau x... smpai mid nite leh duduk situ and talk hehehe!
it's ok sis, next time i pick u kt college ok? we go hang out together rite?

great sis!

hi guys, i am back!

after so very long,
here i am back!
life is good, and missing him so much!
i guess, he is doing ok..
with his blog is still on and happy for him.
bought for him few things from paris,
yet i know.. he wont accept it.
so how?
shud i just keep it?

figured out!

where he is staying now!
nice place.. :)
very luxurious!
hope that he is happy now...
misses the cute him :)

LOVE ME

he loves me not

love me or else i'll be gone forever..
it is you, all i want..

papa selalu kata,
love the one who loves us..
but..?
why dun he thinks that way than?

:: alya shereen dzul halim ::

things about him

- first time i met him, i said He's CUTE!
- smells nice all the time! even before sleep.. (polo blue i guess!)
- all of his clothes is well ironed. (very particular)
- very hygienic and well organized.
- will stop at mosque for prayers.
- talk only necessary things but always smile!
- say thank you all the time. (even to the parking ticket fuller)
- only eat healthy foods! (sometimes he is like a baby, hehe)
- only drinks blue cap mineral water (he hates the white cap)
- drive very careful.
- very particular in every aspects.
- only stands at the left side of escalator (japanese rules)
- nails mcm girl, sbb too clean and nice! (hehe)
- always put on lip balms (it is in his left pocket always)
- keep her girlfriend pix in his wallet (untungnye jd gf dia) and also hp's wallpaper!
- oh ya! his car is damn clean (inner and external too) <-- marah kalau kotorkan! haha
- very soft voice and speaks literally perfect.
- always have handkerchief in his back pocket.
- whenever he smiles, his eyes will b straight like cartoons!
- nice hair smells, very fruity smell..
- he loves purple so much.
- will listen to u whatever u wanna talk about.
- listen to lite FM (sentimental guy) and oldies songs!

lots more, but anyway.. thanks to Penang.. where we first met..
i know he is with somebody else, but i'll keep him here in my heart in a very special place..
he is a good friend, so let's be friend, ya..

MR. LOVE

i miss u.
i know i am wrong.
i am sorry.
if i ever know,
u would not appreciate my confession,
i will never confess the feelings.
as long as i can be friend with you.

a bad day

- woke up late
- late for class
- saw his car at the NPE highway on my way back
- where is he going?
- text him
- no reply
- called him
- the operator answered each time.
- say something babe.
- don u do tis to me.

Ignored and Unrequited Love

What do i do when he denied the love i have for him?
I just wanted him, nothing more.
Do you know this love is real?
Sometimes I wonder what you think.
My heart it aches, my heart it's sore.
I love you more than you could know,
And I don't want to ever let you go.
So even if I'm just a friend,
I'll always love you until the end.
If only I could describe everything about you.
I'd go on forever because it could never die.
All I know is that I have a love that is true.
Everything about you makes you the perfect guy.
I'll wait for you even forever it takes.
Till you crash your love and back alone.
I'll be the one to wipe out the tears.
Because I love you too much since first we met.


=I know you know this poem is for you=

open house raya 2008

my beloved friends!
from left (above) : naim, isha and ben
from left (bottom) : jien shi, fida, hakim and leo

you and me

the another door that opens,

could ever bring us together?

18 oct 2008,
the memorial of love that once blooms..

the eternal love that left

the lonely heart that been left,

without any goodbyes.

he went away,
at the very young age.

the eternal feelings,
sacked my heart.

he has to go,
left everything behind.

he is the one,
the only one i want.

but that night is the night,
after a year of fighting.

that bed was the last,
before we could share any.

i hold him tight,
but yet he has to go.

after 2 years had passed,
his smile is still with me.

i remembered the way he laugh,
very tiny but funny.

i am missing u,
my Elham that left me.

Elham and Alya is made for each other forever....

missing my late Elham

Muhammad Amirul Elham Bin Muhammad Azmi
(1986-2006)

Elham + Alya
(2004-2006)


thinking of you till it hurts,
i know there's nothing i can do but i just want to remember..
those days that we were together,
and
the love we shared..

:: love you till the end, Elham ::

boring day

online @ starbuck sunway,
doing assignments,
but damn lazy (help me)
juvann went out to meet her bf,
sara have to settle her brother's matter,
i am here with no one to hang out with!

-the bored, damn day!

nice girls shoppings!

Went out with Sara and Juvann for this whole sweet day! And we went crazy shopping here and there.. (as usual)!

So i get myself :

MNG white cardigan
MNG green basic top
Esprit green hooded
2 dresses from ZARA
Topshop pants
2 tops from Dorothy Perkin
A pair of sandal from Clark
4 top shirt from P&co
Skirt from mark and spenser
Bonia high cut shoes
hand bag from GUESS
and at last sling bag from MNG

:: at the end of the day, i realized that I've finished my 500 cash and used almost 2K from my credit cards.. But yet, I didn't shop any for my parfumes and make up list ::

black dress from ZARA

white cardigan from MNG


MNG shopping crazee


MNG basic top




I LOVE SHOPPINGS!!

the D's

desperation.delusion.destiny


"the art of living is more like wrestling than dancing"

Marcus Aurelius